harlows
Saturday, July 5, 2008
trying to recover

sorry for the mood in my previous post
i cant be happily delusional in this world of mine
i have problems too

and i just chose to let it out yesterday
cos i just need to
nope, no attention from anyone
i just want to pour out all my feelings

hurt, dejected, miserable
that was how i felt last night

but aini has super fast recovery rate
my heart cells are able to replicate fast enough to cover up the burnt areas
okay
that's so scientifically incorrect
yah i noe heart cells are unable to divide and replicate yada yada yada
i do listen in class okay (at times, that is)
but i'm speaking in terms of metaphorically

placed you at the back of my mind
and started the day quite alright
besides the fact that I DID NOT SLEEP AT ALL THE WHOLE NIGHT
i was having problems concentrating in class
i was SUPER horrendously sleepy

watched many AMAZING youtube videos with selina, abs, christian and bird
i love you nick pitera
lovelovelove muacks

but you kept creeping back into my mind every now and then
and i really tried my hardest pushing it away
kept starting to feel sorry for you
but scolded myself for doing that

come on aini
i can't continue to let myself be led on time and again
i need to stand up for myself
for my own rights

POLY50 TRAINING
did 50 rounds today
only one team came
so i became pacer
fun sia
and i had so much energy
but yah
thx everyone who came
for sacrificing ur time to come for trg

i ran faster today
i can feel the difference
why??
cos i had so much hate in me
i noe, its bad
but it really works on making me burst
i chiong like mad for the last round
nvr chiong that madly before

ohwells

butt cramps followed after that
hahahaha

starbucks @ simei with jacob and bird
thx for sending me home, you two
really sweet of you

dammit i have a pimple

oh ya
i wanna spread this to the whole world

i lost 2kg
and my tummy's significantly reduced
and i MIGHT have increased in height

hurrah

i should get some rest now
im mentally, emotionally and physically drained

let me have a DEEEPPP dreamless sleep
and not wake me up early

and yes
i'm aimlessly wandering alright
but damn right i'm having the best time of my life wandering

i'd thrown away the empty promises you presented to me
it's gone
goodbye