harlows
Friday, July 4, 2008
hurt

read this

i fking HATE you

enough is enough
and i'm dead serious this time

i'm not your a stupid punching bag
i'm not created for you to make use of

i'm your fking friend with feelings, dumbshit

i'm ALWAYS there for you
day or night
anytime
anyplace
when you're in trouble, i'll be the first to rush to you

you know i will never turn you down when you needed help
actually
i had never remembered an instance when i seriously turned you down

that just shows how much you meant to me right?

and cos of the fact i'll never reject you
you made use of me
you'll use me until i'm battered and torn
but you'll still continue to use me

cos you noe
no matter how much pain and hurt you inflict on me
i still wont turn you down

everyone reading this might think how stupid i'm letting myself be

yes
i am stupid
i am very stupid

you
out of all people

you
whom i shared everything with

you
someone i'll give my whole life, my whole soul to

you knew me since forever
is that why you thought i'll always keep coming back to you?

you'll throw my heart around
give me sleepless nights
made me bawl my eyes out
and then when you realised you might lose me
you'll text "im sorry"

and thats it

i'll forgive you

time and again

jus a fking word saves your ass a hundred times

i had enough of apologising for mistakes that YOU did
i had enough of crying because you dont care

yes
you dont bloody freaking care about my freaking existence

you only act like you do cos i'm someone who'll do every freaking favour of yours

yes
probably
im a dog in your eyes

i really did everything for you, huh

look back and think of EVERY SHIT you had done to me

think, asshole

is this how you treat the girl who cares for you more than she can ever care for anyone else??

you'll regret this

best friend.