harlows
Sunday, July 27, 2008
fking busy

pushing away the thought that i am fking busy

thank GOD i got you
:)

go aini go

Saturday, July 26, 2008
ica amazingness

i totally cannot recall what i did on thursday and friday (ytd)

shit told ya my memory is failing

i have way too many stuffs to get done with
and i keep making useless mental notes again

and my stupid hp
been giving me problems
many many problems
ppl's slide phones tend to get loose when sliding after a while
mine gets stuck
and all rusty and stuffs
i dun rmba wetting my hp though
but it feels like there's a dead rat stuck inside or something
ohwells
rest in peace dead rat

and the space key wont work!

and my inbox is all messed up
msgs go in and do not appear at the top anymore
it appears anywhere it likes, among my billion msgs
i dunwan delete some msgs cos its dear to me!!!
)=

oh bird accompanied me go lavender ICA building ytd to make my IC
since daddy's in ICA
the 3 of us totally jumped the LONGLONG queue (wait, i dun think we're even queuing)
daddy just called his fren, who opened a counter for us
our ticket no?
0000
hahaha

sibei coolness
bird was like omg aini ur freaking lucky!
like other ppls come and wait for 3 freaking hours
ahh my dad rocks
haha

mum and dad have been asking me about the presence of a special someone in my life
>.<
damn lame right
yea yea im always caught chatting on the fone latelateLATE at night
sorry luhhh

changi airport was fun with you
:)

gg out to raffles later!
cant cant CANT WAIT!!!

Wednesday, July 23, 2008
cls sports mania street soccer

CLS SPORTS MANIA STREET SOCCER today
ohmy luckily it ended without any blood shed
the semifinals SIBEI POWER!

my heart ached for patrick's team
argh i really thought they were winning

so finale will be irsyad's team VS prem's team
next wed
indoor
woo

poly50 trg ytd
=)
glad my team improved our timings significantly
but still must do wayy much more
must be lesser than 1.20!
JIAYOU JIAYOU!!!

argh my memory's failing me
lalala~

i cant wait for fireworks!
=)

Monday, July 21, 2008
cold weather with nasir =)

weather today was cooollldddd
and i cant stand coldddd

and i nvr bring jacket
)=


woo! grey sneakers are LOVED! =)




stuffs we do to liven up practicals
haha

nasir acc me to queensway after skul
need to order the poly50 jerseys and all
went ikea after that to waste time

bought a RED pillow

i love love love ikea!
=D

LOL

was fun hanging out with him
thx for accompanying me
=)
and he wore his police squad shirt
HOW SAFE CAN ONE FEEL WITH HIM
hahaha
coolness

yay school starts later tmr
=)
poly50trg woo!

tell me its true

waking up to ur voice

i love waking up to your voice

=) it makes my day

Sunday, July 20, 2008
picture galore

yay
finally found a time to update
been soooo busy

watched the dark knight just now at plaza sing with nasir, clem and shuzhen
=)
lovely lovely lovely ppl to be with
the show has a great plot
i looooovvveeee how they portray the joker
so dark. sinister.
but i dont understand 35% of the movie
when they start tokin abt investments and lawyer stuffs yada yada yada
but its really a good movie
one dat is long i must say
2 and a half hour
woo

haha

christian bale is SUCH A TURN-ON!


YUMMY!!!

went wisma to repair nasir's hp
went vivo for dinner
i slept at the stairs there after dinner!!!
so super tired!
and the rest just chat along
nasir said i jerked when i sleep!
OMG so embarrassing

haha thx ppl for the great time
thx nasir for being crazy enough to send me all the way home when u live at cck
-.-

had spsu's mixed netball fiesta ytd
won 3rd
=)
so happy
i didnt even noe anyone from the team except jun
and i joined the game cos of jun also

dammit i miss netball like nobody's business
its DAMN CUTE to see big buffed up basketballers playing netball
and some can do layout with the netball post
wtf right

haha ohwells
really proud of my team
got really good shooters
and im glad to be able to be a defender again
i did feel like my fats are weighing me down lol
im not as agile as i were before

ohwells
too late to join back the team cos i have totally no time

pictures galore time
=)


AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA


woo! look at xavier's sexy fair leg! haha


lawrence's dead asleep

and then everyone fall asleep

happy birthday, xinyu!!!


WOAH. AHLIAN! CHIOBU! hahaha

i lovelovelovelovelove my new bag ok. haha

my definition of UNFAIR. HAHAHA

how badly sunburnt i am. shit.

sexy alan. oh man he's so sexy

day 2 of getting sunburnt. shit. btw the place was super deserted

i introduce to u... nasir the bapok. haha. super gay can?!?! use my bag somemore.

day 3 of getting sunburnt. shit. my lesbian partner

my harassing victim.

nasir flirting with the attendant

i felt so bad for dirtying nasir's puma jacket with my chocs and all
and its white some more
>.<

its no longer a game
i'm not playing
serious


Saturday, July 19, 2008
exhausted

i have really used up my main body energy
its such a chore to even think now

and my eyerings are *&^%$&%# disgusting

and shit
i cant rest
tmr spsu's mixed netball fiesta
die die die

i shall use my reserves (fats) and artificial energy (redbull) tmr

come on aini
just keep moving forward

Friday, July 18, 2008
nasir

argh
he's just a too nice guy for me to play around with
i cant make use of that guy
he's too innocent!!!

where are those attentionseeking, egoistic jerks that i need right now?

u did this to me boy

ahh i refuse to make use of him
if not clement and bird will kill me
)=

i think with my mind, and i lost my heart

thx lawrence

keep going back to lawrence's blog and read that portion over and over again
letting the truth of it seep into my veins
letting the hurt dissipate slowly
letting myself embrace fate

thanks lawrence

Thursday, July 17, 2008
love jean grey's hair


i want that hair
jean grey's red hair
the only prob is that i am 5tones darker than her
and ppl will think that im crazy (mummy will disown me)

ahhhh

Wednesday, July 16, 2008
FKING STRESSED

anyone wanna have a try living out aini's life for one day only?
just one day
tomorrow please

)=

i really need a break
im dying omg
so fking stressed up

i wanna slp the whole day tmr
but got pathology!!
)=

im mentally drained, emotionally hurt, and physically fat
LOL ok the last part was redundant
but ohwells
haha

i want a manicure, a pedicure, and my puma bag
=DDD
super bitchy girlish stuffs but hey
im just too stressed up already

and people keep adding in to my stress
its not easy ok to bear this

argh
nvm i shall prevail
aini is strong
=)

some lame pics of this week

i got a seat in the train. then bird and butt wanna revenge so they dumped all their heavy bags on me. i looked like im crying sia. haha

and thats butt trying to act emo. look more like a ghost to me.

darling thaddeus :)

grey contacts are freaking sexy i tell u. hahaha

not sleeping tonight
yet again
didnt sleep last night too

)=

argh i need to get you outta my system

i love you tauhuey
=)

Tuesday, July 15, 2008
omg IM GONNA DIE

something to irritate selina and abigail



haha

mental notes are freaking retarded
i tell you

like seriously
i tell myself something
make a mental note of it
then forget it after 3seconds

oh fk i got a memory of a fish

noo~~~

okay drama mama

anyways
i made so many mental notes to myself
i felt dubious
wondering whether i'll remember all of them or not
so on the whole way train ride back home, i cant sleep at all
my mind very noisy
=(

so at aljunied i heck ah
take paper and start writing out everything

so these are whats in aini's head

1. call poly50 ics of each team
2. go up to miss lek on fri to take money for jerseys
3. give poly50 forms URGENT!!
4. helpers for poly50!
5. badminton guys format give abby tmr
6. study pathology tonite!
7. fill in contacts and print the paper
8. change clarence's capball team
9. ask sports official about indoor street soccer
10. $5 for christian
$5 for class
$4.50 for jianwei
11. fri must bring up jersey samples to lecturers
12. ask lawrence about nx mc meeting
13. street soccer refs needed!
14. cca points form to be done






oh fuck
no wonder i felt clogged up

oh god

need to put it in my blog since i owes go to my blog
and butt can check here if she wants
hahaha

went queensway today
alone
)=
cos everyone but me have classes
then reuben so horrible dunwan help me with the medals
FK SIA SUPER HEAVY LA
i got so many things to carry somemore!

cabbed back to skul

poly50 trg
pacer YET AGAIN
but very tiring cos me run for guys for 5 consecutive times
so proud of myself
muahaha

i paced lawrence
HAHAHA
which idiot will do that
but freaking fun i tell u
hahah

my leg pull is still there dammit

oh everyone come club on friday
got jersey samples
so can put down ur sizes
most probably u'll be telling abigail

dammit
i hate pimples
i mean
why the hell do our bodies produce pimples when we're stressed?
i mean
we're already so stressed about other stuffs, now we need to be stressed abt how ugly we look?!
ah fk

fun day tmr

but not slping tonite

omg
redbull doesnt even work on me anymore lah!

die
haha

Monday, July 14, 2008

hurting myself in every other way possible to express my dissatisfaction

ARGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
FUCCCCCCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKk

i'll wait

hey

no worries

i'll wait

i don't even noe why the hell im so optimistic, but yah

it's not like me to be looking-at-the-brighter-side-of-*&^%-life

but since this is what my heart wants

then i'll wait

Sunday, July 13, 2008
gdbye

something so very important being left unsaid

thats the hardest part

dejected

this is so unfair
so very unfair

but ohwells
who said its gonna be fair anyway??

life's always been like this

im one sad case
argh

i feel like abandoning all hopes and run away
maybe to spain or something
ahah
dream on, u faggot

but it happened to me before
i just cant be bothered

oh crapness

did weird things last night
like bathing at 4am (woo! without heater somemore!)
and spring cleaning my room even when its oreadi super clean
i keep doing all these weird stuffs when im unrest
argh
im still feeling troubled
should find something weird to do
maybe shave my cat or sumtin later on
hahaha

anyways
met biscuit today
bought new wallet from espirit
hurrah :)
me gonna guard that wallet with all my life force
maybe chain the thing to my soul or something
haha

biscuit's POLITE starting tmr!!
jiayou jiayou!!
=D
i noe u can do it lah boy

dont think abt other stuffs so much
ur team needs you
:)

and i'll always be there for you

always

knew july's gonna be hell on me
i need to withstand this
oh God please stand by me

looking at biscuit gg polite and all
makes me miss gg for these kind of compys
argh
but i cant go back netball now
i wont have time for others
i wont neglect my sports comm
i sure wont
why doesn't playstation have netball games or sumtin???

wait
aini
you don't even have a playstation

-.-

i don't know what to do now
i don't wanna wait for the end
but am i a good enough reason for you to hold on?

omg
aini super tired
see la
sleep at 6am somemore
ahh damn

sick and tired

meeting biscuit later :)

wtfaggot
i blogged 4times ytd

>.<

my blog is very very alive
haha

sorry i think too much
cant help it
i'll try my best orite
to keep this simple
and sweet

i need to be more patient man..

have faith, aini

meeting biscuit later at 3pm
yay :)

uneasiness

yet another post
this is what happens when aini gets too bored

i really felt super irritable being tied down by so many things
thinking of so many stuffs
all of these affect my mood
i dont like that
it'll affect ppl around me too

to be this understanding
can i actually do this?

i did something that i regretted oh so horribly
and worse, i kept thinking of it
dammit
hope it wont affect anything
)=

i need to learn how to hide my disappointments and stuff
i duno why i lost the ability to control these feelings recently
crapness

i just realised im still not convinced
oh no
and reading the blog's archives and all isn't exactly helping me much
why the hell did i do that?
argh

now im gg to throw everything away
and study like madness

aini starts studying on her own when she's troubled
who in the world does that
lol

gdnites ppl
eh
morning actually
look at the time
wow

uneasy

oh weird me

stress

poly50 names to be submitted real soon
kept reshuffling again and again
need to call people for their full name and sizes
need go make jerseys so very soon
cca points/helpers/???

sports mania
booking for badminton guys
dead dead
street soccer referees please come to me

mixed netball fiesta on saturday
might clash with badminton guys
might
might
how
how
how

gems presentation
had already told grp members i dun mind compiling everything
but none gave me their work yet
have they even done it
weird
weird

out of time
out of mind

so very mentally shagged

and biscuit's not back home yet
hmm

just me and my walkman radio
lalala
oh
anp datasheet too

feel like chatting with someone
but too lazy to pick up the phone

oh weird world
oh weird me

Saturday, July 12, 2008
think again, darling

you told me you think you will treasure me more than i can ever treasure you

now

that's where you're wrong

damai bbq!

here i am
contemplating to study haaarddd on a saturday
when yolande msged me to go bbq at damai

OMG WHAT A THING TO RESIST!!!

i really wanna go!
but i feel super guilty!!

arghhh

okay aini chill chill

wait
since biscuit will be having fun at his fren's bdae party later
its just right for me to have fun at damai bbq later

=DDD

haha what an excuse

omg i miss DAMAI!!!

Friday, July 11, 2008
breakdown

sorry people
that i was cranky most of the day
okay
i was very VERY cranky, i noe
really sorry about that

stuffs just happened without me being able to salvage them
i feel so..
ahh whatever

sorry biscuit
)=
but thx for being the shoulder for me to cry on

and thx shuzhen
for listening to me

i knew you'll run away without standing up and admitting you're wrong
its just so characteristic of you

ohwells
had poly50 trg today
i was breathless
as in literally
even BEFORE i ran
just meant something is so wrong

i was panting laa
lik wtf?
i havent even run at all??

after 1st dash
it got worse
i didnt wanna backout
never did that before
but the very fast heartbeat of mine is panicking me
even after like 7mins of rest, i'm still trying to catch my breath
wth

so scared i would die la just now!
haha
if i die then, i wouldn't be able to tell biscuit something, and i wouldn't have my last tauhuey to make me happy!
)=

ok lame

anyways
it got better (THANK GOD)
but then
i pulled my thigh muscle

ok now i realised the pull's really bad
limped the whole way from skul to mrt
and limped back home
it &^%# hurts
my whole leg feels pain
sitting had never felt more painful
and i cant do that stupid W thing with my leg cos it hurts too bad )=

dammit me
i was too focused on hurling vulgarities to ethel that i forgot about running properly
roar

ugh
now i think im gonna be stuck at home for both weekends
freak la
im so sad

and you
just cos i had not played netball for almost a year does NOT mean i'm no longer one
i am always a netballer in heart although i rarely play it now, due to some circumstances
its the no.1 sport for me and im best in it
it's not right for you to look down at me like this
cos you yourself noe how i play more than others do
then whats with all this attitude?
just cos you exercised more than me does not mean anything okay

it just hurts that out of all
you're the one to belittle me

abit too early to say that, huh?

we'll just find out how much i had deteriorate next saturday


this wrinkled, geeky boy of mine is the reason for my dandruff and pimple outbreak DAMMIT!!
looking at my pic, i feel lik doing liposuction on my eyebags
haha

seatbelts in taxi are meant for entertainment value and for crossing overs and stuffs

look at my fat cat on MY seat

i shall now stone and wait for biscuit's call
i love friday nights
=)
its meant for the braindead people to uhh.. practise "braindeading"
haha

you never fail to make me smile
=)

Thursday, July 10, 2008
my smile means so much more with you around

my smile means so much more with you around

i shall update stupid random photos cos im lost for words by the awesomeness of uhhh
life

-___-

OK LAME
hahaha

we are just way too damn bored in the toilet
and yes
i drank green tea in the toilet
ya ya disgusting wadevar

i sincerely apologise for camwhoring, but i need to do something to save me from gregpoi

we both have ugly squinty eyes =)

bird as catcher? AWESOME! haha

felt that life's a little more meaningful
been really happy

and yah
4 is my new favourite number
=)

even with today's super flat hair of yours (what's up with that?! haha), ur still a big chipmunk of mine

thanks for everything

addicted to biscuit
ohmy

=D




Wednesday, July 9, 2008
1st day with biscuit

hey nincompoops

today
i attended greg poi's lesson
yah amazing i noe
lol even though i DID got caught for sleeping

>.<

tired la dehh
hahaha

had crazy phrases coming out today
liming: i think my nose is blocked. should be my nosehair. (WTF?!)
and from me
ME: even a corpse is more entertaining that greg poi

=D

went tiongbahru to make new ezlink
i took a new passport photo!
i look super round hahaha
and i managed to smile in a way that my fake dimples show!
so now my new ezlink shows my fake dimples!!

FREAKING COOLNESS

hahah

then a myriad of sports followed after that

badminton girls
  • bird and selina qualify for the grand finale
basketball deciding match
  • calvin's team qualify for grand finale. will go against xavier's team
then after that capball trg

>.< freaky accident happened
i was soo freaked out by the blood and all
so much for being in biomed, u dumbshit
ambulance came and all

thk God, yulin's fine
recover fast boy
and thx jianwei for following him

slacked ard with shuzhen for awhile
thx for all the encouraging words, girl
muacksies

i received many funny numbers today on my phone
just cos biscuit lost his phone haha

faster buy new one la
im gg crazy not being able to text you
argh lol

ahhh so many things in my mind to think of...
busybusybusy!
i'll try my best to not get myself so worried about this
one day
i'll be convinced
for sure

i miss biscuit .___.

i love you jacob

9th July 2008

aini happy
=)


everyone else dont matter anymore

its just you and me

=)

Monday, July 7, 2008
picture uploads

hellos nincompoops

alright!
some updates on the photos i took today!
=D


bernard's proud of his own juice
yes people
its urine
hahaha
so freaking concentrated la his

i LOVELOVELOVELOVE liming's new Asics shoe
especially when its RED!
sexyness to a 100%

but apparently
the owner of those hot shoes are not that sexy afterall
hahha

i heart them loads =)

cute linus and poor azhar haha

TAN SHAO YONG's attempt on the Tshirt design competition
even my cat can draw better than that
HAHA

she's not my assistant for nothing
haha

when ur too tired of standing in the lift

total O.o look
haha

ohwells
school had been so-and-so
normal busy stressful stuffs gg ard, as usual

i just dont understand why it got to be this complicated
this messy
isit that big a deal to create a commotion out of it?
i'm happy
you're happy
but all the rest aren't happy

and why is that?

ohwells
i shall continue this bochap attitude of mine
and not be too concerned about it

just when i thought i found someone

=.=

Sunday, July 6, 2008
wtf

oh SHIT

what the NUGGET was i thinking?!?

everything's just so messed up

i dont wanna think abt anything anymore

i dont know what to believe )=

khad help

Saturday, July 5, 2008
im sorry, reuben

i'm sorry la ok
i tried
i really did

i feel super helpless not being able to ever give u a solution for this problem
wait
actually i did
but you never give a thought for it
wait
you did
for only awhile

you're oh so reluctant to do things that are a little bit more that required
i need more than just my status okay
i need consideration and probably some effort from you
to put urself in our shoes
and realised how hard it is to approve of your requests

but ohwells
like you said
a sorry wont change anything

yah true

but i really did more than i could to help

nick pitera



nick pitera
i love you and i wanna marry you
bye fabregas
hahahahha

i can watch this video for a hundred times and my heart will still melt by his voice
dammit

i dont want any other guys but you!!!

looks like im gonna be single for a looonnngggg time to come
hahahaha

stayed at home for the whole saturday today
slept like a bigfatpig

i needed the sleep anyways
for not slping one whole night+poly50 trg
haha

i want my tauhuey

had a nice talk with azhar last night
haha
=)
glad to know him more

and why is everyone following my fav vocab ORGASMIC?!?!
dammit

and im feeling real weird now
whats with the sudden.. uhmm... things gg around now

ohwells

but i'm still clueless
so dont rush me

trying to recover

sorry for the mood in my previous post
i cant be happily delusional in this world of mine
i have problems too

and i just chose to let it out yesterday
cos i just need to
nope, no attention from anyone
i just want to pour out all my feelings

hurt, dejected, miserable
that was how i felt last night

but aini has super fast recovery rate
my heart cells are able to replicate fast enough to cover up the burnt areas
okay
that's so scientifically incorrect
yah i noe heart cells are unable to divide and replicate yada yada yada
i do listen in class okay (at times, that is)
but i'm speaking in terms of metaphorically

placed you at the back of my mind
and started the day quite alright
besides the fact that I DID NOT SLEEP AT ALL THE WHOLE NIGHT
i was having problems concentrating in class
i was SUPER horrendously sleepy

watched many AMAZING youtube videos with selina, abs, christian and bird
i love you nick pitera
lovelovelove muacks

but you kept creeping back into my mind every now and then
and i really tried my hardest pushing it away
kept starting to feel sorry for you
but scolded myself for doing that

come on aini
i can't continue to let myself be led on time and again
i need to stand up for myself
for my own rights

POLY50 TRAINING
did 50 rounds today
only one team came
so i became pacer
fun sia
and i had so much energy
but yah
thx everyone who came
for sacrificing ur time to come for trg

i ran faster today
i can feel the difference
why??
cos i had so much hate in me
i noe, its bad
but it really works on making me burst
i chiong like mad for the last round
nvr chiong that madly before

ohwells

butt cramps followed after that
hahahaha

starbucks @ simei with jacob and bird
thx for sending me home, you two
really sweet of you

dammit i have a pimple

oh ya
i wanna spread this to the whole world

i lost 2kg
and my tummy's significantly reduced
and i MIGHT have increased in height

hurrah

i should get some rest now
im mentally, emotionally and physically drained

let me have a DEEEPPP dreamless sleep
and not wake me up early

and yes
i'm aimlessly wandering alright
but damn right i'm having the best time of my life wandering

i'd thrown away the empty promises you presented to me
it's gone
goodbye